Impossible

This cannot...be...happening...but it is. Wow. Yes, he broke up with me, and yes, I am a 100% complete mess. I've never cried so much in my life. You know, you think after crying for several hours, your body would run out of tears or something but nope. They just KEEP coming. Leaving me with a MASSIVE headache and a soaked t-shirt. and I actually thought about..hurting myself...today. I hate it. I hate it so much. I really thought...I really thought he meant it. I thought it was forever. I thought he loved me I thought...so much. And it was all LIES and now he's just gonna leave me SITTING HERE CRYING AND ACTING LIKE 5 MONTHS OF MY LIFE MEANT ABSOLUTELY NOTHING AND IT CAN'T JUST GO BACK TO NORMAL BECAUSE IM NOT MYSELF ANYMORE AND HE DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT!
AAAHH!!!!!!
Everyone keeps asking me if I'm okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not even remotely CLOSE to okay.
I can't eat. Or sleep. Or do anything..but cry...and stare at pictures and cry...and remember things and CRY. and CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRY AND CRYYY!!!!!!
Honestly. Did 5 months and...6 days mean absolutely nothing. That you think you can just go back to 5 months and 6 days ago like nothing happened. Like...you never told me..all those...AHH!!! DOUCHE BAG DOUCHE BAG DOUCHE BAG DOUCHE BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAG!!!!!!!!!!!! So guess what? Idc WHO is reading this...and WHAT they now think of me but...
So...he won. Now I'm...now I'm...wishing I was DEAD.
I wish I was dead...

-Kiera