Hey guys! MERRY CHRISTMAS! :) it's been a really good Christmas. I may not have gotten tons of presents or some big laptop or something, but I'm so grateful to have a family that cares enough to get me something. I got some really good stuff!
So here's an update--I got a job! I don't know If I've mentioned this yet but yup! McDonald's! Tomorrow is my first day actually working. Party!! :D 3-8! I'm excited but kinda nervous. I know it's just McDonald's but I just hope I don't screw something up. I tend to do that...o.o
I've felt really inspired lately. I don't know how to explain it. Just...I feel like I really need to do something with me life. I'm still juggling ideas of what to do after high school. I think I'll go to community college (for free with my A+ hours) for 2 years first and look into performing arts centers and stuff. Audition at Saint Charles and stuff. Look into record deals maybe (but that's a long shot) and then after two years, I'll go to a university and major in music and vocal performance and minor in musical theatre. Or I might major in music and musical theatre and minor in vocal performance. Haven't decided yet...but yea. And then I guess...see where it goes from there. I just know I don't wanna stop performing. Ever.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
Monday, December 10, 2012
If your Dreams don't scare you, They aren't big enough<3
I can't wait until the day that people see me and regret making me cry. I can't wait until they look at me and think "well damn, I was really rude to her and I was wrong". There are days where I want to hop on the next train, plane or whatever the hell I can find, out of this town and go to L.A or New York and be somebody. Or at least try. There are days where I know how good I am and I'm confident in myself and who I know I can be. But more often are there days where I'm not sure. Who I am...who I could be. Sometimes I feel like my dreams are two big. I read a quote that really is just...me. If your dreams don't scare you, they aren't big enough.
I just feel like its perfect. Because my dreams scare me. A lot. If I'm gonna be honest with you, my ultimate dream is to be on broadway. Or just performing. All the time. Singing. Doing what I love for a living.
We just recently finished our musical, Copacabana. I played Lola La Marr, and I loved it. I can't even begin to tell you how much I love performing-especially musical theatre. It's just me--over the top, out there, big, bold...I just love it. It's something I'm truly passionate about. I love everything about musicals. From learning lines and going Crazy making index cards while balancing homework, color guard and show choir, to the final weeks of hell and perfection that I love. Everyone calls the last two weeks of musical hell weeks. But honestly, as pathetic as it sounds, they are my two favorite weeks of the year. Just seeing how much I love it, and how it overcomes the hard work and the stress...I can see myself doing this as a living. It's a scary dream. A crazy one. But I think if I work at it, maybe I could be a performer. I feel like sometimes I'm too unrealistic. But sometimes, I feel like, if you're going to be truly happy in life, you have to be. You have to look beyond your little Box of reality. Reach for the impossible. Because somewhere, past the lives we're living, beyond the barrier of plastic wrap we call reality, is a new reality. Where dreams can happen. If you put away your grumpy pants and stop being pissy Pete, things can happen. I know it sounds cheesy but honestly. You can do anything if you work for it and you don't give up. Invent the first time machine. Design the next big video game. Become America's next top model. Claim your fame. Do what you love. Because I feel like that's what God is calling all of us to do. Firstly, to love him and love others. And then, to do what we love. Maybe making sacrifices for others and for him along the way, but nonetheless make yourself and those around you happy. Happiness is contagious. So just be happy. You know know how it could affect a stranger.
I just feel like its perfect. Because my dreams scare me. A lot. If I'm gonna be honest with you, my ultimate dream is to be on broadway. Or just performing. All the time. Singing. Doing what I love for a living.
We just recently finished our musical, Copacabana. I played Lola La Marr, and I loved it. I can't even begin to tell you how much I love performing-especially musical theatre. It's just me--over the top, out there, big, bold...I just love it. It's something I'm truly passionate about. I love everything about musicals. From learning lines and going Crazy making index cards while balancing homework, color guard and show choir, to the final weeks of hell and perfection that I love. Everyone calls the last two weeks of musical hell weeks. But honestly, as pathetic as it sounds, they are my two favorite weeks of the year. Just seeing how much I love it, and how it overcomes the hard work and the stress...I can see myself doing this as a living. It's a scary dream. A crazy one. But I think if I work at it, maybe I could be a performer. I feel like sometimes I'm too unrealistic. But sometimes, I feel like, if you're going to be truly happy in life, you have to be. You have to look beyond your little Box of reality. Reach for the impossible. Because somewhere, past the lives we're living, beyond the barrier of plastic wrap we call reality, is a new reality. Where dreams can happen. If you put away your grumpy pants and stop being pissy Pete, things can happen. I know it sounds cheesy but honestly. You can do anything if you work for it and you don't give up. Invent the first time machine. Design the next big video game. Become America's next top model. Claim your fame. Do what you love. Because I feel like that's what God is calling all of us to do. Firstly, to love him and love others. And then, to do what we love. Maybe making sacrifices for others and for him along the way, but nonetheless make yourself and those around you happy. Happiness is contagious. So just be happy. You know know how it could affect a stranger.
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