Somebody that I used to know.

Alright so we know how everyone thinks I'm incredibly naive right? Goody-goody? Well recently I've been talking to my friends about Prom and we're all planning what to do before and after. My friends invited me to a sleepover at my friends house and I was planning on going until my friend says "Were gonna try and get some alcohol. I think we'll have some." and I immediately didn't want to be there. You may think it sounds silly or goody-goody but I don't want to put myself in that situation. I dont want people to see me as someone I am not. I don't want to present myself in a way that is not controlled. I am who I am and I won't let any level of alcohol change that. I don't care if you are my "best friends". You do what you wish but your going to have to accept who I am. I don't drink. I don't smoke or do any type of drug. Im conservative sometimes, yes. But is that a reason to treat me differently? No. You are sorely mistaken if your idea of fun is getting yourself so drunk that you have no idea who you are. They you have no control of your decisions and that you will not remember it in the morning as you complain about your migraine and throw up over the toilet. That was your decision, and it will not be mine. I will not. I'm sorry but No ones opinion wil phase me. And if these people truly are my best friends, they would understand. But sometimes I don't think they are. They sure as heck don't treat me like it. They don't tell me things because when they do, I give them advice. I'm sorry if I care about you enough to worry what your getting yourself into. Maybe i should just stop caring. Nobody listens to me anyways. My opinion simply just doesn't matter because I havent experience these things. Because "Kiera doesn't understand." well screw that. I know enough to understand that what your doing is stupid, dangerous and no the person I want to be. And if you can't deal with that, I'm sorry but we can't be friends. Because I won't change for anyone. No exceptions. I guess I'm finding out who my real friends are everyday. I dream of a day where I have a best friend who I can count on. Who will text me when i need them. Who won't cut me off and then talk to me when it's convenient. I need to stop making excuses for everyones behavior. Because I'm tired of being hurt by people I trust.

-Kiera

Real

Hey guys. I wanted to write but might be cut off cuz it looks like it's going to rain. So lately I've just been kinda...pissy I guess. People constantly feel the need to say mean things about me. It got to a point to where I'd walk up to a group of friends and theyd all shut up. I wonder who they were talking about? It just upsets me what I hear people say. As you know, music is my world. I sing nonstop and I absolutely love it. I practice all the time, and anyone who knows me, knows that. There's always a song that I am practicing around the house and in my bedroom. People say that I don't deserve another solo, and I get things handed to me on a silver platter and that I don't work for things. I work my ass off all the time and all I get is my so called 'friends' talking about me behind my back about how I don't deserve anything. I really do work. Music is the only thing Im good at and it's not my fault that I get solos...I work for them and I love getting them! I just wish people would try to understand my situation. I'm always there for my friends when they need me and they go behind my back and say these horrible things. And they wonder why I only go to a select few for advice. While were on Thr subject of friends, I wanna thank Jake since he thanked me In his last blog post:P he's a really great friend and we've been through a lot, which I think shows how strong of friends we are. AND were gonna be famous soon. So no big deal or anything. (; he's pretty much the only one who reads this sp...Thanks! :P
I took my very first voice lesson on Friday. It was awesome. It makes me nervous aboutthe future. I don't want to be some classical singer who teaches as a college or an opera singer somewhere. That's not me. I think the thing I'm most afraid about is losing myself. Myself I mean, like, my music. The music that defines me. I'm trying out for American Idol this summer. Im not getting my hopes up, simply because I don't have a story. I know I've already talked about this but why can't we have people out there who are simply talented? They don't have to have some horrible, heart-wrenching story but instead, they are, simple and raw and just themselves. We need someone who is REAL. who doesn't stress their sob stories so that they can make it. Which I refuse to do. I could go up there and tell them about plenty of sad stories in my life, but I won't. Because I want to be loved for who I am, who I have made of myself. NOT for what has torn me down made me cry. I wanna be real.
Kay, getting intense here. I'm gonna go because I think my dog really wants to go inside, and because I'm all out of topics.

-Kiera

Hey(: haven't written in a while. I know. Guess I just kinda lazy. Not that anyone reads this. :P So since I last wrote, a lot has happened. I have a boyfriend, and he's a really great guy. I'm very lucky(: at our last show choir competition (best competition everrrrrrrrr) we finally beat mount Zion which we have never beat!!!! I got best soloist again. I got a full scholarship to Show Choir camps of America which if I was to pay for it, it'd be over $600. So I'm so blessed. It's really an awesome feeling that I will never be able to explain. All our hard work paid off this year. And all my constant singing of you and I paid off. I've got two trophies in my room to prove it(: alight I don't have much more to say...

-Kiera