Hey there, blogger. So I usually don't have wifi at my house. But we figured out that if you sit on the trampoline in our backyard, we have it!!! So each time I post that's probably where I'll be. It's beautiful outside today. It was super hot earlier but the wind picked up so now it's nice. It'll take a while to brush out my hair though...having hair like mine, sucks you know. :P I don't really know what I wanna talk about today.
Have you ever had a friend or someone you know that always seems to talk in code. I hate when people are all confusing and make me confused. Ha. That sounds odd. It's true though. Maybe it's because I can be a bit dim at times. But still. I can't stand when people play games with me. They don't realize what they're doing could be hurting me. I wish for once, people would think about my feelings.
New subject.
So were going on a show choir competition this weekend. I know I seem obsessed with show choir. I just love it. And everything about it. I never get tired of it. But this year gas been amazing. But for some reason we haven't don't as well as I wished we could've. Cuz I honestly think wehave such a great group this year. Werejust up against some really awesome groups. Which sucks sometimes:p I'll just hope for the best this weekend. You never know(:
I don't really have anyone else. The title didn't match the blog's theme today but whatever. I'm too lazy to change it.
-Kiera
Monday, March 19, 2012
Friday, March 16, 2012
How many times will it take to get right?
So as you may be able to see in the title, the song of the day is Get it Right by GLEE(: I know that episode is super old but I love that song. Or at least the words of it:P Whenever I'm feeling really inspired, I tend to listen to one song over and over again. Usually when I'm writing, the title of the song is the song I'm listenig to. Or sometimes I just pick a random song.
I know that everyone out there has felt lost at times, right? Alone? Like no one else in the world has ever experienced what you are feeling at the moment? I just wanna throw out there, that you are not alone. And that your situation could be so much worse. There's a few topics Imma hit today so...keep up with me:P I'm gonna start trying to give topics for each post..that way you don't have to read all of my rants and ramblings to get to a certain topics. We all know that this blog is more so for my venting sake. And just because writing things out makes me feel a litte bit better.
Kony 2012
I know as you read the above bolded and italisized words, you probably feel like this topic has been way over-talked-about. But I just wanna hit on it a little bit...if you haven't seen it here's a link. Watch it now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4MnpzG5Sqc
It's a 30 minute video, but lemme tell you...it's amazing and life-changing and you need to watch it. It makes me feel like I have hope. There are some amazing, caring and wonderful people on the planet and they can sure as heck overpower the bad people. If we tell ourselves we can't do something, we will never do it. Because we never try. I think the key to sucess is to try. Over and over. Watch the video and help if you can. We can make a change.
Get it Right
Sometimes, I feel like no matter how hard I try, I will never be good enough for some people. No matter how loud or strong I sing, no matter how I pluck my eyebrows, no matter how much makeup I plaster onto my face. I feel like I will never be talented or pretty or tall enough. You get what I mean. Hey, I'm ranting so if you don't wanna read it, skip over it. I have the freedom to type whatever I want on this here blog. so...Apples, bananas and watermelon-kiwi-kangaroos. I can also not make sense. I ain't gon be arrested for this here making no sense...
Aight moving on.
You get my point though? Or that people only enjoy being in my company when I succeed. When I got my trophy for best soloist, I have never been so crowded with people. It was amazing, and I love everyone. But sometimes it makes me curious that if I hadn't of gotten that solo if everyone would still be so kind to me. The appearance everyone gets of me is small, innocent, awkward and a singer. I guess you could kind of relate me to a bird. A really awkward bird. Like Gertrude McFuzz. No wonder I got that part in 7th grade...Anyways, sometimes I wish I could change the way people looked at me. I'm not somel little naive little girl. Just because I have never smoked, or drank, or made out with a boy, or had sex, or any of those "Teenage milestones" does NOT mean there is something wrong with me. It doesn't mean I am naive. It doesn't mean that people who have (which is almost everyone) are smarter or better than me. Just because you have experienced those things does not make you better than me. I heard people talking about me one time...you what makes me angry is when people brush me off and tell I don't understand because "you're still a virgin". Well alright! I am, and I don't think that makes me any different than you. I just have different lifestyle choices than you, obviously. I'm a catholic and I'm a strong believe in abstinence before marriage. Alright, if that changes your views of me because you now think I'm an innocent freak who's afraid of boys well then alright. Your not a good friend. Sorry. Went on a rant there. :P Stereotypes are incredibly dumb. You do not know me. Or someone told me that the first time they saw me perform, they assumed I was stuck up. Or people tell me I'm full of myself.
Pet. Peeve.
I am NOT FULL OF MYSELF!!!!!! Obviously, you don't know me if you think I'm full of myself. I am confident onstage and it's the only place I can truly be myself and let all of my emotions go. So don't judge me for loving being onstage. Don't tell me that I am full of myself unless I straight up tell you, being serious, that I am awesome and that I'm going to beat out all of the soloists in the whole wide world. Because I know there are plenty of people, in Troy and all over the world that are better than me, and if you don't think so, thank you. But I will never think that. Because I don't hear the voice everyone else hears. Honestly, I absolutely hate listening to myself sing because it embarrasses me because I don't like the sound I hear in recordings. Everyone else says it sounds great. but I alawys find a flaw. Which is okay, because I'm not damaged or nothing. That's just how I am. I'm hard on myself. Perfectionist. That just makes me more determined to improve. (:
Alright, my sister is bugging me to go watch Dirty Dancing with her. Never seen it. I know, smack me now. (:
-Kiera
I know that everyone out there has felt lost at times, right? Alone? Like no one else in the world has ever experienced what you are feeling at the moment? I just wanna throw out there, that you are not alone. And that your situation could be so much worse. There's a few topics Imma hit today so...keep up with me:P I'm gonna start trying to give topics for each post..that way you don't have to read all of my rants and ramblings to get to a certain topics. We all know that this blog is more so for my venting sake. And just because writing things out makes me feel a litte bit better.
Kony 2012
I know as you read the above bolded and italisized words, you probably feel like this topic has been way over-talked-about. But I just wanna hit on it a little bit...if you haven't seen it here's a link. Watch it now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4MnpzG5Sqc
It's a 30 minute video, but lemme tell you...it's amazing and life-changing and you need to watch it. It makes me feel like I have hope. There are some amazing, caring and wonderful people on the planet and they can sure as heck overpower the bad people. If we tell ourselves we can't do something, we will never do it. Because we never try. I think the key to sucess is to try. Over and over. Watch the video and help if you can. We can make a change.
Get it Right
Sometimes, I feel like no matter how hard I try, I will never be good enough for some people. No matter how loud or strong I sing, no matter how I pluck my eyebrows, no matter how much makeup I plaster onto my face. I feel like I will never be talented or pretty or tall enough. You get what I mean. Hey, I'm ranting so if you don't wanna read it, skip over it. I have the freedom to type whatever I want on this here blog. so...Apples, bananas and watermelon-kiwi-kangaroos. I can also not make sense. I ain't gon be arrested for this here making no sense...
Aight moving on.
You get my point though? Or that people only enjoy being in my company when I succeed. When I got my trophy for best soloist, I have never been so crowded with people. It was amazing, and I love everyone. But sometimes it makes me curious that if I hadn't of gotten that solo if everyone would still be so kind to me. The appearance everyone gets of me is small, innocent, awkward and a singer. I guess you could kind of relate me to a bird. A really awkward bird. Like Gertrude McFuzz. No wonder I got that part in 7th grade...Anyways, sometimes I wish I could change the way people looked at me. I'm not somel little naive little girl. Just because I have never smoked, or drank, or made out with a boy, or had sex, or any of those "Teenage milestones" does NOT mean there is something wrong with me. It doesn't mean I am naive. It doesn't mean that people who have (which is almost everyone) are smarter or better than me. Just because you have experienced those things does not make you better than me. I heard people talking about me one time...you what makes me angry is when people brush me off and tell I don't understand because "you're still a virgin". Well alright! I am, and I don't think that makes me any different than you. I just have different lifestyle choices than you, obviously. I'm a catholic and I'm a strong believe in abstinence before marriage. Alright, if that changes your views of me because you now think I'm an innocent freak who's afraid of boys well then alright. Your not a good friend. Sorry. Went on a rant there. :P Stereotypes are incredibly dumb. You do not know me. Or someone told me that the first time they saw me perform, they assumed I was stuck up. Or people tell me I'm full of myself.
Pet. Peeve.
I am NOT FULL OF MYSELF!!!!!! Obviously, you don't know me if you think I'm full of myself. I am confident onstage and it's the only place I can truly be myself and let all of my emotions go. So don't judge me for loving being onstage. Don't tell me that I am full of myself unless I straight up tell you, being serious, that I am awesome and that I'm going to beat out all of the soloists in the whole wide world. Because I know there are plenty of people, in Troy and all over the world that are better than me, and if you don't think so, thank you. But I will never think that. Because I don't hear the voice everyone else hears. Honestly, I absolutely hate listening to myself sing because it embarrasses me because I don't like the sound I hear in recordings. Everyone else says it sounds great. but I alawys find a flaw. Which is okay, because I'm not damaged or nothing. That's just how I am. I'm hard on myself. Perfectionist. That just makes me more determined to improve. (:
Alright, my sister is bugging me to go watch Dirty Dancing with her. Never seen it. I know, smack me now. (:
-Kiera
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Puzzled, Rants, Wisconsin and New addictions
Chaio. I dunno if thats how you spell that, but whatever. Hopefully you get the point. So. I'm kind of in a ranting/inspirational/angry/good mood. Bipolar right? Confusing. You tell me...
Have you ever wondered you could do something and not have to worry about the consequences. I never do something without overthinking it. Ever. I confuse myself daily. Sometimes overthinking things is a good thing. For instance, in English class, overthinking a metaphor or symbolism comes in handy. In math or science class, overthinking things isn't too handy though. Sometimes in people it comes in handy. When I make a decision about someone because I overanalyzed them and turn out to be right, that's always good. But the majority of the time, I'm way off. I'm not the best at reading people. Come to think of it, I'm not very good at reading my own emotions.
This might be weird, but have any of you (who am I kidding, no one's reading this) ever felt like you had no idea what in the world you want. Something your heart yearns isn't always something your head insists. Which happens to me a lot. I love whole-heartedly (someone told me that today, I'm not just tootin' my own horn:P ) which sometimes kinda sucks. Because not everyone does. Some people love everyone, and divide all that love, until it feels like each person only have a tiny fraction. What am I talking about, getting off topic. Again.
Being confused, right? Having no idea what you want. And what sucks a lot, is wanting something that you know the consequences will make your life a living hell. but you still want it. A lot. Which sucks. But then there's an alternative, that could be just as good as having the other thing, but the consequences won't suck.. The only thing is, you can't be sure that this other option will be as great. But the first option you know will be good. I'm just confusing myself writing this. Probably why the word RANT is in the title(: Next topic!
Wisconsin!
Spring break is this week and I'm visiting my grandparents in Wisconsin, which has been a blast so far. We went bowling today and guess who won BOTH games? THIS GIRL(: no big deal or anything...(; ha. We also went to a waterpark hotel thing the first few days. And yesterday we came to their actual house and we've had a great time(: Woooo!! Okay not too much on this topic. Moving on.
New Addictions
Alright this topic excites me. WOO! So there's a few things that I am absolutely ADDICTED To. The first and most definitely important most amazing one is...THE HUNGER GAMES. I borrorowed the book from a friend last friday because I've been dying to read it, and as soon as I started it I couldn't put it down. I finished it yesterday and I was shaking and sweating and...it was pretty intense. I won't ruin it for any of you, but if you haven't read The Hunger Games yet, you should go get it RIGHT NOW because you're missing out. My nana (grandma but we call her nana) bought me the next two books because yesterday I literally sat in me and my sister's guest room and read all day while everyone was running around making scrapbooks and stuff. I cannot tell you how amazing this series is, and you just gotta read it because the movie is coming out next friday (which I can't see because I'm going on a SHOW CHOIR competition.-but I MIGHT see it with my guy-friend and bestfriend at the midnightshowing-though its doubted))) Alright next newfound addiction. Carrie Underwood came out with this new song called Good Girl and it's AWESOME! I heard it and flipped my lid. Me and my friend Corynne listened to it on the way to Minnesota on our last show choir competion (ooh, I gotta talk about that after this...note to self(; )and holy CARRIE! I've always known she was amazing but she seriously made me want to...I dunno I can't think of anything crazy enough. Do something crazy. Her new song is very different than her usual mello, chill country singer stuff and I LOVEI T. it's still Carrie Underwood, and she's not totally changing her sound. I hate how people always freak out when musicians change up their sound. If she continued the exact same kind of music she is doing, it'll eventually get boring. You gotta change it up every once in a while. I would still listen to her music of course, but no everyone adores her as much as I do:P If you haven't heard the song, look it up on youtube right now. If your reading this, I know you have internet connection so don't even start:P ANOTHER addiction, sadly, don't make fun of me...my sister taught me how to scrapbook. It's pretty intense. You don't believe me. My baby pictures look SO GOOD in that scrapbook. Imma pro(; ha. Not really a pro, but it's fun to add little flowers and stuff...My nana has an unlimited supply of decorations so...yeah good times, good times. Another addiction happened awhile ago...I watched the MUPPETS. Then new movie? awesome, awesome, awesome, AWESOME(:
Show Choir Updates
So I dunno if I've posted all this stuff, probably now but here's how we're doing. First competition was Fort Atkinson. Made Finals (YAY! We thought we wouldn't. It was TOUGH) and placed 5th place overall. there were like...24 or so groups there so we did pretty good. 2nd competition we made finals and placed 5th as well. We were all kinda bummed cuz we expected higher than that, but we all just decided it was rigged and went back to the hotel and had a fiesta (tacos...SO GOOD(: ) 3rd competition was the BEST!! (: Hastings, Minnesota. First off, the people there are so nice. We loved all of our hosts and I wish they would read this so I could tell them how awesome it was to meet all of them. We made finals and placed 3rd overall. We were all VERY physced to not get 5th again. Oh and..um...I GOT BEST FEMALE VOCALIST. AH(: It was pretty awesome. I hope I don't get too mushy for your liking but...if anyone from Troy is reading this...I really appreciate the support you all give me. I can't stress it enough. I almost started crying walking up to accept that trophy and not because I was proud of myself, or because I was nervous of falling down the huge stairs in my 4 and a half inch heels. It was because everyone cheered for me so loud. And smiled at me and they all just looked sincerely happy for me. And I can't tell you how much that makes me happy. Just typing this now it makes me teary-eyed. I am so incredibly blessed to have a group that gives me all that support and I love every single one of you. Even if we're not best friends. No matter what place we get, there's no other show choir I'd rather be in. I love you Express, Soundwave, and every single person that clapped for me. I know I seem like I'm being overdramatic. but it really did mean a lot to me. More than you know.
I guess that's about it for today. I wish I could write more but hands are actually starting to get a bit tired. We go to our final competition next weekend. It's gonna be rough, but I have faith in us. No matter what we place, I love Express show choir and I love everyone in Troy.
<3 Kiera
Have you ever wondered you could do something and not have to worry about the consequences. I never do something without overthinking it. Ever. I confuse myself daily. Sometimes overthinking things is a good thing. For instance, in English class, overthinking a metaphor or symbolism comes in handy. In math or science class, overthinking things isn't too handy though. Sometimes in people it comes in handy. When I make a decision about someone because I overanalyzed them and turn out to be right, that's always good. But the majority of the time, I'm way off. I'm not the best at reading people. Come to think of it, I'm not very good at reading my own emotions.
This might be weird, but have any of you (who am I kidding, no one's reading this) ever felt like you had no idea what in the world you want. Something your heart yearns isn't always something your head insists. Which happens to me a lot. I love whole-heartedly (someone told me that today, I'm not just tootin' my own horn:P ) which sometimes kinda sucks. Because not everyone does. Some people love everyone, and divide all that love, until it feels like each person only have a tiny fraction. What am I talking about, getting off topic. Again.
Being confused, right? Having no idea what you want. And what sucks a lot, is wanting something that you know the consequences will make your life a living hell. but you still want it. A lot. Which sucks. But then there's an alternative, that could be just as good as having the other thing, but the consequences won't suck.. The only thing is, you can't be sure that this other option will be as great. But the first option you know will be good. I'm just confusing myself writing this. Probably why the word RANT is in the title(: Next topic!
Wisconsin!
Spring break is this week and I'm visiting my grandparents in Wisconsin, which has been a blast so far. We went bowling today and guess who won BOTH games? THIS GIRL(: no big deal or anything...(; ha. We also went to a waterpark hotel thing the first few days. And yesterday we came to their actual house and we've had a great time(: Woooo!! Okay not too much on this topic. Moving on.
New Addictions
Alright this topic excites me. WOO! So there's a few things that I am absolutely ADDICTED To. The first and most definitely important most amazing one is...THE HUNGER GAMES. I borrorowed the book from a friend last friday because I've been dying to read it, and as soon as I started it I couldn't put it down. I finished it yesterday and I was shaking and sweating and...it was pretty intense. I won't ruin it for any of you, but if you haven't read The Hunger Games yet, you should go get it RIGHT NOW because you're missing out. My nana (grandma but we call her nana) bought me the next two books because yesterday I literally sat in me and my sister's guest room and read all day while everyone was running around making scrapbooks and stuff. I cannot tell you how amazing this series is, and you just gotta read it because the movie is coming out next friday (which I can't see because I'm going on a SHOW CHOIR competition.-but I MIGHT see it with my guy-friend and bestfriend at the midnightshowing-though its doubted))) Alright next newfound addiction. Carrie Underwood came out with this new song called Good Girl and it's AWESOME! I heard it and flipped my lid. Me and my friend Corynne listened to it on the way to Minnesota on our last show choir competion (ooh, I gotta talk about that after this...note to self(; )and holy CARRIE! I've always known she was amazing but she seriously made me want to...I dunno I can't think of anything crazy enough. Do something crazy. Her new song is very different than her usual mello, chill country singer stuff and I LOVEI T. it's still Carrie Underwood, and she's not totally changing her sound. I hate how people always freak out when musicians change up their sound. If she continued the exact same kind of music she is doing, it'll eventually get boring. You gotta change it up every once in a while. I would still listen to her music of course, but no everyone adores her as much as I do:P If you haven't heard the song, look it up on youtube right now. If your reading this, I know you have internet connection so don't even start:P ANOTHER addiction, sadly, don't make fun of me...my sister taught me how to scrapbook. It's pretty intense. You don't believe me. My baby pictures look SO GOOD in that scrapbook. Imma pro(; ha. Not really a pro, but it's fun to add little flowers and stuff...My nana has an unlimited supply of decorations so...yeah good times, good times. Another addiction happened awhile ago...I watched the MUPPETS. Then new movie? awesome, awesome, awesome, AWESOME(:
Show Choir Updates
So I dunno if I've posted all this stuff, probably now but here's how we're doing. First competition was Fort Atkinson. Made Finals (YAY! We thought we wouldn't. It was TOUGH) and placed 5th place overall. there were like...24 or so groups there so we did pretty good. 2nd competition we made finals and placed 5th as well. We were all kinda bummed cuz we expected higher than that, but we all just decided it was rigged and went back to the hotel and had a fiesta (tacos...SO GOOD(: ) 3rd competition was the BEST!! (: Hastings, Minnesota. First off, the people there are so nice. We loved all of our hosts and I wish they would read this so I could tell them how awesome it was to meet all of them. We made finals and placed 3rd overall. We were all VERY physced to not get 5th again. Oh and..um...I GOT BEST FEMALE VOCALIST. AH(: It was pretty awesome. I hope I don't get too mushy for your liking but...if anyone from Troy is reading this...I really appreciate the support you all give me. I can't stress it enough. I almost started crying walking up to accept that trophy and not because I was proud of myself, or because I was nervous of falling down the huge stairs in my 4 and a half inch heels. It was because everyone cheered for me so loud. And smiled at me and they all just looked sincerely happy for me. And I can't tell you how much that makes me happy. Just typing this now it makes me teary-eyed. I am so incredibly blessed to have a group that gives me all that support and I love every single one of you. Even if we're not best friends. No matter what place we get, there's no other show choir I'd rather be in. I love you Express, Soundwave, and every single person that clapped for me. I know I seem like I'm being overdramatic. but it really did mean a lot to me. More than you know.
I guess that's about it for today. I wish I could write more but hands are actually starting to get a bit tired. We go to our final competition next weekend. It's gonna be rough, but I have faith in us. No matter what we place, I love Express show choir and I love everyone in Troy.
<3 Kiera
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