So as you may be able to see in the title, the song of the day is Get it Right by GLEE(: I know that episode is super old but I love that song. Or at least the words of it:P Whenever I'm feeling really inspired, I tend to listen to one song over and over again. Usually when I'm writing, the title of the song is the song I'm listenig to. Or sometimes I just pick a random song.
I know that everyone out there has felt lost at times, right? Alone? Like no one else in the world has ever experienced what you are feeling at the moment? I just wanna throw out there, that you are not alone. And that your situation could be so much worse. There's a few topics Imma hit today so...keep up with me:P I'm gonna start trying to give topics for each post..that way you don't have to read all of my rants and ramblings to get to a certain topics. We all know that this blog is more so for my venting sake. And just because writing things out makes me feel a litte bit better.
Kony 2012
I know as you read the above bolded and italisized words, you probably feel like this topic has been way over-talked-about. But I just wanna hit on it a little bit...if you haven't seen it here's a link. Watch it now: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y4MnpzG5Sqc
It's a 30 minute video, but lemme tell you...it's amazing and life-changing and you need to watch it. It makes me feel like I have hope. There are some amazing, caring and wonderful people on the planet and they can sure as heck overpower the bad people. If we tell ourselves we can't do something, we will never do it. Because we never try. I think the key to sucess is to try. Over and over. Watch the video and help if you can. We can make a change.
Get it Right
Sometimes, I feel like no matter how hard I try, I will never be good enough for some people. No matter how loud or strong I sing, no matter how I pluck my eyebrows, no matter how much makeup I plaster onto my face. I feel like I will never be talented or pretty or tall enough. You get what I mean. Hey, I'm ranting so if you don't wanna read it, skip over it. I have the freedom to type whatever I want on this here blog. so...Apples, bananas and watermelon-kiwi-kangaroos. I can also not make sense. I ain't gon be arrested for this here making no sense...
Aight moving on.
You get my point though? Or that people only enjoy being in my company when I succeed. When I got my trophy for best soloist, I have never been so crowded with people. It was amazing, and I love everyone. But sometimes it makes me curious that if I hadn't of gotten that solo if everyone would still be so kind to me. The appearance everyone gets of me is small, innocent, awkward and a singer. I guess you could kind of relate me to a bird. A really awkward bird. Like Gertrude McFuzz. No wonder I got that part in 7th grade...Anyways, sometimes I wish I could change the way people looked at me. I'm not somel little naive little girl. Just because I have never smoked, or drank, or made out with a boy, or had sex, or any of those "Teenage milestones" does NOT mean there is something wrong with me. It doesn't mean I am naive. It doesn't mean that people who have (which is almost everyone) are smarter or better than me. Just because you have experienced those things does not make you better than me. I heard people talking about me one time...you what makes me angry is when people brush me off and tell I don't understand because "you're still a virgin". Well alright! I am, and I don't think that makes me any different than you. I just have different lifestyle choices than you, obviously. I'm a catholic and I'm a strong believe in abstinence before marriage. Alright, if that changes your views of me because you now think I'm an innocent freak who's afraid of boys well then alright. Your not a good friend. Sorry. Went on a rant there. :P Stereotypes are incredibly dumb. You do not know me. Or someone told me that the first time they saw me perform, they assumed I was stuck up. Or people tell me I'm full of myself.
Pet. Peeve.
I am NOT FULL OF MYSELF!!!!!! Obviously, you don't know me if you think I'm full of myself. I am confident onstage and it's the only place I can truly be myself and let all of my emotions go. So don't judge me for loving being onstage. Don't tell me that I am full of myself unless I straight up tell you, being serious, that I am awesome and that I'm going to beat out all of the soloists in the whole wide world. Because I know there are plenty of people, in Troy and all over the world that are better than me, and if you don't think so, thank you. But I will never think that. Because I don't hear the voice everyone else hears. Honestly, I absolutely hate listening to myself sing because it embarrasses me because I don't like the sound I hear in recordings. Everyone else says it sounds great. but I alawys find a flaw. Which is okay, because I'm not damaged or nothing. That's just how I am. I'm hard on myself. Perfectionist. That just makes me more determined to improve. (:
Alright, my sister is bugging me to go watch Dirty Dancing with her. Never seen it. I know, smack me now. (:
-Kiera
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