I'm going GAGA!

So I absolutely cannot get the song 'Bad Romance' out of my head, because it's my text ringtone (well the GLEE version anways-which--in my opinion--is WAY better-) so it goes off every like 2 seconds so now I think I'm going crazy. GAGA. Whatever you wanna call it. To tell the truth, I don't think Lady Gaga is that amazing. Sure, she's got pretty wicked awesome music, and her clothes do look pretty kewl (the non-hooker ones)
THERE GOES MY PHONE AGAIN! RAHRAHAHAHA!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Anyways.
Yes, she's kewl but honestly...to me she's the next Brittany Spears. Carrie Underwood is the bestest. :P Apparently she's going on tour! Not apparently considering that is a very good thing! I'm trying to beg my parents to get my tickets for when she comes to St.Louis, because I would pretty much DIE to go see her. She's my FAVORITE. :)) That smiley face looks hilarious. Wow, I really do have ADD don't I? I get off track a lot? But you know, my boyfriend and half my friends are at band camp so I've got nothing to do and no one to talk to and I'm bored out of my mind, so I think I'll just talk to the computer. I think that'll work, right? Of course people will read this and think I'm completely crazy but oh well...I mean, I pretty much AM completely crazy, right? O.o
Well yeah. Today I babysat for my neighbors. I almost died. 3 children. Ages 0,2 and 7. I seriously almost died. I had to call my mom to send up my 10 year old sister to help me because I was dying. Those kids almost KILLED ME. Every two seconds "IM HUNGRY!" "POOPY!" "OOPS!" "CAN I COLOR?!" "WHERES MY PRETTIES?!" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! *RIPPING OF THE HAIR OUT OF MY SKULL!!
and you know...usually I am very good with kids. but today had NOT been my day. My neighbor woke me up this morning cuz she needed me to sit, and me, needing the money to raise $400 by september for show choir, accepted. So I went over there at like 12 (Yeah she woke me up at 11 and I was crabby. I go to sleep late!) I thought they were just gonna be gone, you know, a few hours. They were going to see her brother's new baby. But they were gone 4 hours. I almost died. But it's okayy. I got $30 bucks and a massive headache. But it's totally worth it. Show Choir is definitely worth almost dying every tuesday and any other time I am needed to babysit. DEFINITELY worth it. I was supposed to sit again tomorrow while they went to a cardinals game, but she said I didn't have to because her mom wanted to see the kids so she said she'd sit. Plus, they'd be gone a long time and it'd be expensive. $7 an hour for 3 kids ain't that bad...I don't think. Whatever.
So yep. That's what I did today. Babysitting, babysitting, babysitting. Today made me never want kids. I am tramatized. aha:) But I know I'll have kids one day. It's just my destiny. aha. ALL my friends say they can see me  having 4 kids and being a busy mom that doesn't work and never divorces or anything. I'm fine with that:) Exactly what my mom did. I'm pretty sure I've already found that guy...:))
I don't wanna think about 10 years from now though. I know I'll be fine. I wanna think about now. Or the near future.
High School Schedules came out today and I got totally excited. Except for the fact that my least two favorite classes come FIRST thing in the morning each day. We have block scheduling at my school. So its like...Purple and Gold day. Whatever..I don't feel like explaining it.
So yeah. I've really got nothing else to say. Headache. Grah.

Picture of the day izzz....

Yep. Rain. It's not even raining. but whatever.

-Kiera

Rannndoommm!

Woah! Long time not blog!! :P I've been thinking of starting a video blog to put on here (or in other words a "VLOG") because like. How KEWL would that be?!
So the past few weeks have been pretty awesome to tell the truth. I have finally replaced that peice of crap old phone that I had for two years and replaced it with my beautiful touch screen, full key-board samsung flight! AHA!! I named her Vanessa. I felt the need to compliment Vanessa. She's prolly tired from delivering all my messages. Anyways. Yesh.
Summer is almost OVER! School starts August 17th, and Imma be in HIGH SCHOOL! O.O can you BELIEVE IT?! I sure can't!
I'm going camping on August 1st! And then after that, we're going to Wisconsin for a week. How fun! I'm pretty excited actually. We haven't done anything all summer, so I can't wait to actually go on vacation. :) YAY!
SO. Picture of the day.

YES, this is actually a picture of me. :P Yeah, I'm not all that pretty and the picture kinda makes me look fat, but thats me playing Gabriella in HSM. :) I dunno why I picked that one. Today I'm just feeling kinda random. So..yeah!!

Summer Nights...driftin' away!

It's surprising, but this summer has gone by extremely fast. I'm excited to start high school, but I dunno if I'm ready for summer to be over. Being in Show Choir, and Choir and a buncha stuff means I won't have time to sit and chillax during the school year, especially when it comes to Show Choir seasons, when I'll have a competition practically every weekend. and I'm super excited for all that stuff, you know? But this summer has been great...probably the best summer of my life, and that's saying something considering last summer I went to Europe where I visited Paris and Schliersee Germany. But that's another story. Being stuck with your grandparents that aren't used to being with kids, especially someone of my age, for 2 weeks...it gets tiring, okay? Well, although all I've done this summer is sit around the house and occasionally go hang out with people (thats occasionally, meaning I haven't a lot at ALL), it's been a pretty decent summer. Kinda what summer should feel like, you know? Just...chillaxin' all the time. But I am ready for High School. I'm really nervous about it. People know who I am just because I'm some freshman that made Varsity show choir? I mean...I know that's kinda a good thing, but I don't want to be known as the  chick with the voice. I don't even have that good of a voice, to tell the truth...I just...practice until I literally can't practice anymore, to be honest. But it's nervous-making. Ya know? High School isn't supposed to be easy. Middle School, truthfully, was a breeze for me. Although it had those emotional, "I'm-so-stupid-why-can't-anyone-love-me" moments, like everyone has in their middle school career, it was rather nice. Especially since I went from hard-core private school to laid-back public school. I'm so glad I switched schools. I was the freak at my old schools (as I've said before) and at public school, I fit in. Because there's more opportunities, and...I've got more options. There was no Show Choir, Choir, Theatre, or ANYTHING at my old schools. So...I'm thankful. I know everything happens for a reason...so..I might as well just keep my head up and grin and bare it, because no matter what comes my way, I'll be alright. I've got an amazing guy, friend's that'll stand by me, and parents that care. Even though sometimes it feels like I've got nothing, I gotta remember that.
This kinda sounds like one of those note-to-self type things. But whatever. One day I'll look back at this and gain more confidence. But I don't wanna be full of myself. It's so strange but I am SO SCARED of being full of myself. I don't want to think I'm awesome. I sorta want to be insecure. I know I've got talents...but telling myself I'm horrible makes me feel...humble. It makes me feel a little better about the winning. I mean...I'm not a sore winner...nor am I a sore loser. I can take a fall. I guess you could say I'm tough. (not in the physical way though...aha. I bruise easily. I'm like a peach. ooh that sounds nice. Woah, I get off topic way easily. Lets get back to the point and stop talking in parenthesis) So I think my goal in high school, is to be confident in myself, but not too confident. Practice, practice, practice, and keep up the good grades, so I can get into Juliard...my dream college. Be a good person. I want people to feel like they can come to me with anything and...trust me. I'm not the mean type. I kinda let people walk all over me. and that's another thing I want to fix. I need to start standing up for myself. I can't let other people do it. I've gotta stand my ground. So yeah...High School goals....
Can't wait to start working on them, but I'm also not eager for this perfect summer to end...

-Kiera

Today was great! I was lucky enough to spend the day with my most amazing boyfriend:) and when I returned home, I got to watch fireworks in the neighbor's back yard! :D I'm really excited about July. Considering my birthday is the 5th, which YES is in...well it's about midnight now so..I guess you could say tomorrow? Well anyways. July is always my favorite month. I gotta say...2010 has just GONE BYE. To tell the truth, I don't really know what happened this year! It was the greatest! 2009-2010 school year kinda. And now it's summer again. And I'm about to be a Freshman in HIGH SCHOOL. It's funny how it feels like just yesterday that I was 5 years old, whining to my mommy that I didn't wanna take a nap, cuz I was a biiig girrll!!! That just makes me..smile. I'm growing up. My family is growing up. I remember when my little brother was born...both of them. The youngest, who is not 4 is of course the one I remember most clearly. It's just..wow. Time flies by. but life is great. It's a blur of a buncha...random color splattered on some painting we call life. I have weird philosophies. Just like boys and socks. but we're not gonna go into that.
So I havn't posted a picture of the day lately, have I? Well, I think I shall.

So yeah. Purty balloons. :) Happy 4th if I don't post tomorrow! :D
I'm PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN!
<3
-Kiera

Worth it

I havn't written in a while, have I? I'm terribly sorry for not enlightening you dearest readers about my dull, boring life. Haha!! Well...life is very good. :) But have you ever just...wanted to lay in a random field of grass in the dark, stare up at the stars and...think? Cuz that's exactly what I wanna do right now. I hate those moments where you think of something you do wrong in your life, and you have no idea how to fix it. Life is hard to control. You just gotta go with the flow. Sometimes you'll end up with a great, fantastic life...I love my life. Truthfully, I think everyone should feel lucky and blessed to even be living on this Earth. And blessed that we had free will...God doesn't control us like puppets. He allows us to make mistakes. If he didn't want us to make mistakes, why do you think he lets us? Because we were meant to be imperfect. Meant to make mistakes. Meant to completely screw up. Sometimes a twist of fate that makes you want to collapse into a little  ball and cry until you melt onto the floor like a popsicle and just DIE, can bring you to something so amazing and perfect that...you're glad the bad thing happened. Something (or someone) that can just make everything bad go away. and then I look at my life and I wonder how the heck I got so lucky...I'm not that great of a person. I've had more than my fair share of mistakes. I can really screw up some times. Can't everyone? Like I said, no one is perfect. Sometimes...stuff happens..you know? But then...all the tears...the incredible amount of tears that could probably fill a bathtub or maybe a small pool...the anger...the numbness..the wishing that you could just...die...every single thing that could possibly ever happen to you...all the mistakes one could possibly make...(i know your begging me to get to the point right? Well here it comes) You find someone that makes it all worth it.
Like I did.