Real

Hey guys. I wanted to write but might be cut off cuz it looks like it's going to rain. So lately I've just been kinda...pissy I guess. People constantly feel the need to say mean things about me. It got to a point to where I'd walk up to a group of friends and theyd all shut up. I wonder who they were talking about? It just upsets me what I hear people say. As you know, music is my world. I sing nonstop and I absolutely love it. I practice all the time, and anyone who knows me, knows that. There's always a song that I am practicing around the house and in my bedroom. People say that I don't deserve another solo, and I get things handed to me on a silver platter and that I don't work for things. I work my ass off all the time and all I get is my so called 'friends' talking about me behind my back about how I don't deserve anything. I really do work. Music is the only thing Im good at and it's not my fault that I get solos...I work for them and I love getting them! I just wish people would try to understand my situation. I'm always there for my friends when they need me and they go behind my back and say these horrible things. And they wonder why I only go to a select few for advice. While were on Thr subject of friends, I wanna thank Jake since he thanked me In his last blog post:P he's a really great friend and we've been through a lot, which I think shows how strong of friends we are. AND were gonna be famous soon. So no big deal or anything. (; he's pretty much the only one who reads this sp...Thanks! :P
I took my very first voice lesson on Friday. It was awesome. It makes me nervous aboutthe future. I don't want to be some classical singer who teaches as a college or an opera singer somewhere. That's not me. I think the thing I'm most afraid about is losing myself. Myself I mean, like, my music. The music that defines me. I'm trying out for American Idol this summer. Im not getting my hopes up, simply because I don't have a story. I know I've already talked about this but why can't we have people out there who are simply talented? They don't have to have some horrible, heart-wrenching story but instead, they are, simple and raw and just themselves. We need someone who is REAL. who doesn't stress their sob stories so that they can make it. Which I refuse to do. I could go up there and tell them about plenty of sad stories in my life, but I won't. Because I want to be loved for who I am, who I have made of myself. NOT for what has torn me down made me cry. I wanna be real.
Kay, getting intense here. I'm gonna go because I think my dog really wants to go inside, and because I'm all out of topics.

-Kiera