Gravity.

I feel so bad. Long story but...gah. It's just..this guy. Likes me. and you'd think that it'd make me happy. but today, he asked me out. And I told him that I liked him, I really did. and I do. But I'm not ready. I don't know when I will be ready, but I'm not now, and it wouldn't be fair to be with him, no matter how much I like him, when I love someone else. Knowing that if that person were to ever want me back, no matter how unrealistic that idea is, I would go back to him in the blink of an eye. It's wrong and unfair. I know I made the right decision. I don't like it, but I do. and he's right; Life's not supposed to be easy.
My life seems to be some twisted, insane, narrow little path. and I feel like the only thing holding me down is gravity. With, technically is true but...you get my point. GAH. So now I have a song.

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

Set me free, leave me be. I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.


I wanna randomly scream that song to the heavens.
I need to go to bed before I make myself cry again.
That's pathetic.
I'm fine. :)

-Kiera

Who am I kidding? I'm absolutely, 100% NOT fine.