Someday when I stop loving you.

One foot on the bus about half past nine
I knew that you were leaving this time
I thought about laying down in its path
Thinking that you might get off for that
I remember that night we laid in bed
Naming all our kids that we hadn't had yet
One for your grandma and one for mine
Said we'd draw straws when it came time

I'll move on baby just like you
When the desert floods and the grass turns blue
When a sailing ship don't need a moon
It'll break my heart but I'll get through
Someday when I stop loving you

I bet all I had on a thing called love
I guess in the end it wasn't enough
And it's hard to watch you leave right now
I'm gonna have to learn to let you go somehow
Somehow


I'll move on baby just like you
When the desert floods and the grass turns blue
When a sailing ship don't need a moon
It'll break my heart but I'll get through
Someday when I stop loving you
Oh someday someday when I stop
I'll move on baby just like you
When the desert floods and the grass turns blue
When a sailing ship don't need a moon
It'll break my heart but I'll get through
Someday when I stop loving you
Someday when I stop loving you 

I absolutely love that song.
So yesterday wasn't a fun day. I'm hoping today might be better...it's a purple day. Which, if you don't go to my school you have no idea and think I'm crazy and see random colors on random days?
We switch back and forth from Purple days and Gold days (our school colors are purple and gold) and have different classes on purple days and gold days. How I just explained that was super confusing but I'm not even sure if anyone reads this that doesn't go to our school. I think..theres...one person. :P
Anyways.
I'm so tired of hoping for something to happen. I know I shouldn't. I know I should give up, and know that he'll never have feelings for me again. That the day when he stopped loving me was long ago. and that I'm pretty pathetic.
Is it stupid that sometimes, thinking about him makes me smile. Just to remember. and why are those memories so vivid? Why can I remember every heartbeat; every smile? Because I'm a pathetic little teenager I suppose.
and then I get a C on my science test! I CAN'T  GET Cs! I CAN'T!!! I CANT CANT CANT CAAANTTT!!!!!!!!!!!! I. Need. Straight. A's. NEED. Them. Because my parents won't let me be in the musical next year if my grades drop, and they won't let me be in show choir. I. Can't. get. a. C. I CAN'T.
Jeeeezums. I'm way stressed out. At least I remembered my lollipops for play practice today.
YES, sir/ma'am I get to eat lollipops DURING THE MUSICAL. Because I play the role of Penny Lou Pingleton in Hairspray the musical and Mrs.K Said I have to  have either a peice of gum or a lollipop in my mouth AT ALL TIMES. So I brought some lollipops to practice. :P Watermelon and Cherry. Tehe.

-Kiera