Hang your head.

Good morning. I'm really tired. and I have gym first hour. Oh. Joy.
I just found an interesting quote.
"Have you ever felt like you can't ever be good enough for the next guy? because you gave everything you had to the one who broke your heart."
Depressing but...I get it. I'm not gonna elaborate. You just think about that for a little  bit, my friend. Think about it.
You know what upsets me? The fact that whenever one of my friends are upset, I make them feel better to the best of my ability. I try my absolute best to put a smile on their face and to listen when needed. and then when I'm upset, the majority of my friends pretty much tell me to get over it and move on. It doesn't work like that. Ehem. The stupid quote "Time Heals" is actually incredibly accurate.
I just...hate thinking about those stupid lies...that I believed. I should've known...I should've been smart. Of course I had to fall for someone who plays with girls hearts and then dumps them and hates them for the rest of their life. What the hell ever happened to we were always gonna be friends? another broken promise? really? cuz I'm pretty sure he hates me. I didn't do anything to him. I haven't been stalking him or trying to get his girlfriend to break up with him. She's happy. Although she said something the other day that made me think. but I'm not puttin' it on the internet.
I'm the farthest from happy I think I've ever been. I've got so much over my head right now. "Kiera, you need to practice the dance more." "Kiera, you need to get these lines down." "Kiera, you need to bring your music." "Kiera, you need to try harder." "Kiera, do the dishes." "Kiera, Clean your room."
WHYYYYYY?!?!?!?!?!
I want some time to sit on a really, really fluffy bed, and hold myself and cry. and have no one bother me. Just cry. It sounds really stupid, but I'd love to do that. Crying isn't always fun, but it's better than holding it in all the time.
If I didn't have my friends I probably wouldn't be here today. Let's leave it at that.

-Kiera