Alrighty. I really need to vent.
Something is changing.
I dunno i just...Imma cry while I'm typing this and I don't want that to happen.
And then again I don't want someone to read it...
Ah. I just...I don't know. I feel like something's gonna happen and...I'm not gonna be loved anymore. If you know what I mean. Like I'm too much now. Like...I'm not good enough. There's gonna be some other girl. and I'm gonna be alone. Again. Like I was for 13 friggin' long years. And I don't wanna go back to that! I'm SO happy! and I don't wanna..I don't wanna go back. I wanna be happy like this forever. But what if I'm not. What if after all those promises and 'I love you's and everything and he doesn't feel like I do. What if he just said all those things. I can't help wondering if he really loves me anymore. Because somethings different!
Crap. Why am I crying. I need to STOP FREAKING CRYING.
Ugh. Why am I writing this on a blog.
Imma loser.
I might as well just go kill myself.
No one would care anyways.
psh. I'm totally not gonna do that. I'm not emo.
Well.
Sorry you had to read this.
I'm having another one of my moments.
You know who you are...I want you to make it better. PSH. Who am I kidding. I'm just being wierd.

-Kiera