Smile

I know some of you don't want to hear another ramble about being thankful and not taking your life for granted, but I'm going to do it anyways, so tough monkeys. (totally just made that up-don't mind my awkward slang)
So I went to youth mass and youth group for the first time in a while tonight. It's very eye opening when you go without such an important aspect of your life for so long and then you get it back. Kind of like when you hold your breath too long, and when you finally take a breath, it's the most amazing, refreshing and satisfying feeling. Going to church today was like that for me. I know it may sound so overly cheesy. I'm not the perfect catholic. Anyone who knows me, knows I am far from perfect. But there are decisions I have made in my life that at moments, I have wondered if I should give in and do what I know is wrong. But multiple times I have done the right thing, and looking back, I am so glad I did. The decisions I have made through life have made me the person I am today. I know not everyone is lucky enough to have the life I am blessed with. I have a million things to be thankful for. And whoever is reading this-if anyone-you do too. I don't know who you are or what every aspect of your life is like. But you are beautiful and you are capable of whatever you allow yourself to believe. I guess I'm just in an inspired mood tonight but I just wish people would realize how incredible their lives are. How everyday is a miracle and every moment is an opportunity to do something amazing. Dont just slouch around everyday and be scared of the possibilities.
I think that is one of my biggest problems. Not acting on things because I am scared. Im scared to grow up. I'm scared to lose people. I'm scared for my life to change. I'm scared things won't work out. Everyone has something they are afraid of. For some there is more than others. But it's okay to be scared. Because being scared about something also means you care about it.
I've got a lot of insecurities. And sometimes I have days that I just concentrate on my faults too much. But I think everyone has that.
We talked about seeing the good in people today at youth. It made me think. There are people on this earth that have done some pretty horrible things. Mass murderers, child molestors, abusers, drug dealers, and all those...people. But if people learned to see the good in them maybe they would be more willing to be better people. I know, being a little bit too optimistic here. But think about it. Don't judge people because of something they may have done or anything you don't know about them personally. I'm not saying its okay to do any of those things. I'm saying those people have obviously made mistakes. Everyone makes them. Everyone has regrets. And that's okay. Everything that has happened in your life has happened for a reason. God has put every person that has changed you in your life for a reason. Every smile, every tear, every heartbreak, every fear (hey that rhymed!) was meant to happen. And although Im 16 and still a youngin, I feel like I've already learned a lot.
People are judging, jealous and just plain mean sometimes.
That's why you stick with the people who make you smile. No one is perfect. Don't give up on someone because of one argument or because of a petty thing. If someone is in your life they are in it for a reason. And maybe some of the people who have been in your life aren't meant to stay forever. Maybe one day you'll meet some people who are. It's about living it day to day and smiling as much as you can. And making others smile. Because a smile can change so much for someone.
I know this post is all over the place. My brain is on overload tonight. It's 11:30 and I've got to get up at 5:30. So I'm just gonna stop now. I'll probably post again soon.
Life is very, very good. :) more news tomorrow...or whenever I have time to post.

-Kiera :)