So, I'm a girl. (if you haven't noticed) And as most of you may know, girls over think EVERYTHING. well...at least I do! A know a lot of us do. Which kinda sucks. Especially when you over think about things that are fine and you make it seem like they aren't. And the you make something actually go wrong because your paranoid. I guess I can't help my trust issues. There's just always someone better. So I assume there always will be. But maybe there won't. Maybe for once I'm good enough for someone. I just wanna KNOW. Know that I'm good enough. That I always will be?
I don't know. Over thinking sucks. But sometimes it's good to over think. Sometimes my obsessive brain helps me...I get homework done...I do well performing and memorizing lines in musicals because I obsess. What can I say. When I care about something or someone, I get a little obsessive. I can't help it. I've always been that way. I care about my grades. If I don't have a A in a class, I freak out. I had a 94% in English (which is an A-) at the end of quarter this year and asked my tea her if I could do anything to bring it up 1% and I rewrote a whole essay in an hour just for that. Can you say nerd? And musicals? Don't get me started. My whole family pretty much know the whole musical before they see it because I practice so much. Same with show choir. I love performing. More than almost anything. It makes me happy. So I want to do my best. :)
So to catch anyone up-if I haven't already stated this. I have a boyfriend (I don't know if I've mentioned that...) and he is absolutely wonderful:)) I got the lead in the musical! I think I already said that but just in case--i said t again. I'm really excited. It's a fun musical. :) I got a SUPER awesome spot in express. Front center. Almost. It's 2nd row on the floor center--but no ones in front of me. So I love it. :) I'm pretty happy rightnow.
Been super bipolar because being a female SUCKSASS. Emotionally exausted. Right now I'm super happy though. Let's hope it lasts! I get to see my grandma tomorrow. I'm excited:) she's the kind of grandma that is just overly perfect. She's overprotective, warm, bakes good cookies, doesn't like when you eat twiZzlers because you'll "choke on them", and she's the strongest woman I've ever met. If I could pick someone to be like it'd be her. Or my momma. She goes to church EVERY sunday and sings in the church choir. When my first boyfriend broke up with me, she was there. I was at her house. And she took us to et. And shes just wonderful and I love her more than words. Everyone should get the opportunity to meet someone like my grandma. She has given me soapy memories. Dreamsicles and fudgecicles at her house. Sausage for dinner. Making paper dolls out of catalogs. Sooo many. I could go on for years. My gramma is perfect:)
-Kiera
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