Live in the Moment.

So this week has been pretty hectic. I'm in Colorguard (if you don't know what that is--it's the flags and rifles that do choreography in marching band) and all week week have Colorguard camp. Which pretty much means that from everyday, from 8AM to 5PM (with an hour break for lunch) learning the entire matching band show. It's pretty intense and I don't think I've ever been so sore in my life.although it has sucked, it's actually taught me a lesson already. In your first year of color guard, you are only allowed to do flag work, and your second year you can audition to be on rifle as well as flag. I made rifle this year and it's a lot more challenging than flag is. I've been getting really frustrated because I don't get it as fast as the other people who are on rifles. I kept wanting to give up and just say screw it. But I knew I couldn't do that because that would mean letting my team down. I got really angry at myself today but i was lucky enough to have a friend who is patient enough and doesn't judge me for being a slow learner. Sometimes I just feel really stupid because I don't get it as fast as everyone else. It's the same story for show choir choreography. This may be my 3rd year, but I still get confused and take a while to learn it. So sometimes I look around and see it clicking for everyone else and feel like the biggest, slowest idiot in the room. But I'm starting to understand that I'm just not the same as everyone else. I'll just have to work a little harder than some people who it comes easier to. I've worked on the rifle stuff a lot and I'm getting better...my point is. You can't just say screw it. If you want something bad enough, you have to really work for it. If you work hard enough, eventually it will come to you. Not always. Sometimes it doesn't woe out perfectly but working hard on something always makes the end product more successful. And another point...don't get caught up in the future or the past. Don't think you will never get something or that you messed something up that you will never get over it. It's okay to be upset about something that happened in the past r be scared about the future. But you just have to face it. Live in the moment. Don't concentrate too much on the past or future. Concentrate on the right now. It's a gift. That's why is called the present.