Fabricated Girls.

I'm standing in the bright lights of the dressing room, admiring the simple black dress I'd found to try on. I smiled, because the dress made me look thin and I thought my legs looked great. It was perfect. So I stepped out of the dressing room to show my mom and best friend, who were waiting to see it. They instantly chirped of how much they loved it and how I should buy it. And then another teenager walks out of the dressing wearing a dress like mine, but different. It looked amazing. It hugged her tiny hips and her long legs made me feel like a idiot in my dress. When I looked back to the mirror, I saw a pathetic sight. The dress now wrinkled in the wrong places, made my legs look fat, and I could see a little fat roll underneath the dark material. Discouraged because my body is not as pretty as the stranger's next to me.

Has this ever happened to you? Well probably not if your a boy ( that'd be a little strange:p ). But most girls out there know where I'm coming from right? Sometimes I'll look at myself in the mirror and think 'I look so pretty today.' and just be happy because I feel pretty. And then I'll get to school and feel like my close make me look fat or my hair is too stringy. There's always someone that looks so much better than me. Which is why I question why we all compare ourselves to others. It only makes us feel worse about ourselves! Everytime I see someone with skinnier hips than mine, or long legs ( unlike mine ) I wanna crawl in a hole and die. Sometimes I realize that I'm just putting a guard up. Like my clothes are never cute enough, my face is never pretty enough, makeup never well done enough. Being a girl is so confusing...there's so much pressure. No one taught me how to use makeup, or style my hair. I gotta figure all that out on my own. And sometimes I feel like the worst girl in the world. I'll spend half an hour I'm the morning trying to figure out what I want to do with my thick, long, hard to handle muddy brown hair. And I'll put on my makeup and be disappointed.
But what I'd like to do this new year, is to try not to think about how great I look on the outside. Of course I will always make an effort to look great, but I want to have the confidence to wear sweats to school and no makeup and believe that o still beautiful. I think one of the best compliments to get is when someone tells you you look nice when you have no makeup ad sweat pants on. I remember a while ago, I walked into English class, wearing really baggy navy sweats with chipped puffy paint on them, and a t shirt. I had no makeup on whatsoever. And one of my guy friends walked up to me and said 'Kiera, you look nice today.' and I looked at him like 'what?' I asked him if he realized I was wearing sweats, and he told me that he realized that and that it was nice to see my face without makeup. That made my day. The best kind of pretty, is the real you. I'm not saying Wearing makeup and nice clothes makes you fake at all. Cuz I wear it all the time. It feels so nice to wear clothes that make you feel beautiful. But it's even better to hear someone tell you you're beautiful when you had pretty mch just rolled out of bed. So I guess my new years resolution this year is to be confident in my body. To look at my short legs and chubby face, and to not care what other people see.

-Kiera