Hey. So...I'm in the mood to write, I think. Life is just complicated right now and I'm scared. Everything's just wierd. My friends are all turning their backs on me. My 'best friend' goes around gossiping about me, ignoring me and then she comes and cries to me when a boy hurts her and expects me to be 'oh, yeah, bestie! you can come over!' She's using me. and I don't know who to turn to because no one likes me. No one wants me around. Kiera's just a loser that is there when someone needs a shoulder to cry on. I'm useless. Why am I even here? The world wouldn't miss me if I was gone. Maybe my family would. but my friends wouldn't be too upset. I'm nothing special. I just want someone to care. Like it used to be. I'm dumb to try out for X-Factor...Maybe if I make it...I can get away from stupid Troy Missouri and maybe people will actually like me if I'm on TV. Which won't happen and I'm getting my hopes up.
I put on makeup. I do my hair. I try on cute clothes. Like the other girls. I try so hard to be pretty. and I always fail. Everyday. I get up extra early so I can plaster a buncha dumb makeup on my face so that people will like me because who I am isn't good enough. I wanna feel like I'm enough. I used to feel like I was enough. and now that I actually try...no one accepts me for who I am. I'm just 'that freak'.
I'm making myself cry.
Imma go...
-Kiera
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