Innocent.

Im really confused. I miss being 4 years old. And your biggest worry was that your mommy made you stand in the corner. Now that were getting older...Im kinda scared. I don't wanna grow up and face the world. I'm still a little girl. I still hold my little stuffed animals and cry when im upset. But then realize that now...it's different. I can't come crying to mommy and daddy when im scared. I can't climb in their bed in the middle of the night when there's a monster in my closet. And I have to be te role model for the kids. And I just..I dunno what's going on. I dunno what's up with me. I just hate sitting alone ad crying and having to wonder if there's anyone out there who understands. I know gave stupid issues. I wish life was easier. Cuz its not fair. To look at the world and wonder why there isn't enough magic left for me. I hate being older and having everyone assume I can solve all my problems on my own. Sometimes I need someone to tell me it's gonna be okay, because I don't believe it. I don't wanna grow up, and then I do. And then I look back and realize there's already so much to miss. People grow up. Things change. I dunno. Lord, help me be okay...
-kiera