Haven't posted in a while. It seems like I start every post like that. Well-it's summer. I'm gonna be a senior. And it's just weird. I feel like yesterday I was starting freshman year. And we've only got one year left. It's just too crazy to think about. To think that a year from now I'll be going to college and moving out. I just can't grasp it.
I'm not one of those girls that can't wait to leave home and do whatever I want. I'm not one of those girls who all the boys like, and who someone has a crush on every week. I'm not the girl people in general like. I noticed this the other day when I stood up for myself. Or really-I stated my opinion to someone and everyone laughed at me. They stared at me and laughed. And it actually kinda hurt. Nobody takes me seriously. Honestly, I know I get made fun of a lot. Someone told me the other day that they literally wrote "Kiera is a whore" on the bathroom wall freshman year because he hated me because I sniffled a lot. That kinda made me think too. People are so judging. They don't even give people a chance.
Sometimes I try really hard. To be pretty or smart or...something that makes me stand out. And a lot of the times I just can't. I try to look all cute at school and I end up looking absolutely retarded. The one thing that makes me stand out is my voice
I'm trying out for The Voice this summer. And I don't know what's gonna happen. I probably won't make it. But singing is the only thing I wanna do. I don't love doing anything more than performing. Nothing gives me the same rush. I can't do anything else. I just can't.
Next topic.
Everyone keeps telling me that I'll find a guy someday. I just feel like I won't. Sometimes I really disappoint myself because I'm just...I'm kind of a freak. It's just me. And nobody (besides my friends) really accept that. And I'm not the kinda girl who needs a boy to make me happy. But sometimes it just sucks. My best friend is always having a different guy that likes her or that she likes. Everyone likes her. And then I'm just...there. Nobody looks twice at me. And if they do, they probably don't see anything great. I'm average. That's all ill ever be.
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