Dreams

Everybody says senior year goes by so fast. Mine hasn't even started yet and I'm terrified of what's ahead. I'm terrified and excited and clueless. The future is so scary. I know what my dreams are. I know what I want to do; who I want to be. But I also know it's gonna be hard. And I might not find someone to share that dream with me. That's one of the scariest parts. I always dream of finding some guy who will support my dreams and follow me anywhere to help me reach them. But I honestly do not know if that guy exists. I won't until I meet him. I just don't know if my dream is asking for too much.
I know I've told you all a million times I'm going to perform. And I am. I'm going to work my tail off. I don't care what it takes. But the thing is-I want to be a mom too. And a wife and I want a family. And half of me is scared that all this working towards this dream could affect my chances of meeting someone.
Okay, you're probably thinking Kiera, you're sixteen. You don't need to think about this now. But I really do. I have to decide what I want to do with my life now because later it might be too late.
I don't know if any of you have seen the show SMASH. Well, it's my favorite show and it just got cancelled. The last episode was sunday night:( Well it may sound cheesy but that show has seriously inspired me to follow my dreams. I sound like this crazy girl who wants to be on Broadway and is gonna do whatever it takes to get there. You know, the sterotypical, girl-next-door dreamer. And you know what? I am. I don't care who knows it. That is my dream.

I went and saw The Great Gatsby for the second time tonight with my grandparents and my sister. The first time I saw it in 3D with a friend. Well anyways-Gatsby always gets me thinking. Maybe it's the fact that we studied the book in English class and it's a habit to look into the symbolic side of Gatsby or if I just love the character. He's really inspiring. He's not just some bootlegger in love. He will do absolutely anything to reach his dream. Even before he met Daisy, Gatsby knew he was different and he wasn't about to let any opportunity slip through his hands. Daisy is just the one who made him want to make money so fast. It just kind of shows that dreams-and love- can make you crazy. You'll do anything to get your dream and in Gatsby's case his dream was Daisy. Daisy and nothing more or less. That's just inspiring to me. I want someone to look at me like that. I want to be someone's Daisy.
There I go again. Stereotypical, girl-next-door, dreamer, hopeless romantic. Boy, am I cliche. Well, my sister's bugging me to go watch TV with her so I'll go now. More soon.

-Kiera