Good morning. It feels like I got absolutely no sleep last night. (okay, exaggerating just a wee bit. Today I will be going to Illinois for a show choir competition, as will the rest of my show choir. well. Obviously. I have to lug my giant suitcase to school, but luckily my daddy is taking me to school, so I don't need to worry about gettin that thing on the bus.But last night was probably one of the most stressful nights I have ever endured. It was the dress rehearsal and none of us were prepared. Our director, Drinkall, and our choreographer, Kara, laid down the law. We got lectured after our performance and told it was the worst we've done, which I believe considering we'd changed a million things right before we performed and we were all freaking out. Then I found out that my friends in my room are calling me and Kimmie stuck up and full of ourselves because we're in express. If you don't know what that means, there's two show choir's at my school. Soundwave and Express. Soundwave is the prep group and is made up of mostly freshman, and Express is the varsity group which is mainly juniors and seniors. but Kimmie and I along with 2 freshman boys made Express our Freshman year, and some of our friends assume that we're stuck up because of it. Which upsets me, but Kimmie said she had taken care of it and it was fine so...lets just hope everything in our room is alright. Because I'm tired of people getting mad at me for not being perfect. Yes, I can be completely stupid. Yes, I get so stressed out that I wanna rip my hair out! Yes, sometimes I curl up into a little ball and cry just because I can. I'm not a superwoman. I can't make everyone happy at the same time, and the thing is, I'm never focused on making MYSELF happy. It's always my friends or someone who needs help. And I honestly don't know if I can change that. It's just the way I am. I care about people. Even if they don't care about me.
I think this trip is going to go really well...I just...feel it:) I hope so. It seems like my life goes on like some kinda...loop. You know how everyone says love is like a roller coaster? Well mine has a LOT of loop-dee-loops. Because it's just like some...cycle. Wierd. but I shouldn't keep falling for the cycle. Cycles aren't the best sometimes when you know what'll happen in the end. This is coming out extremely wierd:P
You know what song I have stuck in my head? (Yeah...that was way random.)
"I'm still a guy" by...I'm pretty sure its Brad Paisley. LOVE that song. it came on in the car last night and my mom goes 'can you sing this low?" so we both started singing it and...haha yeahh I'm most definitely a soprano :D
Well I gotta go wake my dad up again because I'm pretty sure he fell asleep again and he's taking me to school.
Wish us luck this weekend:)
-Kiera
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