Thank you God!!!!!!

Ever since I was little, I've always fantasized about that perfect guy. The one who comes up behind me and gives me hugs and whispers "you're beautiful". The one who, when I think about him, my heart races and I had hear the heavy sound of my heart thumping in my eardrums. The one who was...everything. Even as a little girl I fantasized. Me and my little sister would play 'house' and pretend we were teenagers and had boyfriends and I always loved the thought of...I dunno...someone loving me. It's not that I grew up in a bad family or something. I love my family. They've always been there for me. They're great to me. I have great friends...I just wanted someone to constantly tell me they loved me.
I've always been the dork. The one who people made up funny names about because she's "different". Yeah..that's me. The weirdo. The FREAK. Sometimes I just wish I could go back in time and change that...I don't wanna be remembered as "that freaky girl who left in 4th grade". I wanna be remembered as me. That wasn't me. I just wanted attention to tell the truth.
I've always been sort of a fish out of water in my family. Maybe not as much as it would seem, but I am a bit...I'm the oldest of 4 kids..so a lot of the time, I'll be off doing my own thing while everyone else is roasting s'mores and talking and laughing and telling stories. I'm just independant sometimes.
I've always been incredibly independant...and really confident too.
I guess what I'm trying to say is...I've always been ME. Me is who I wanna be. Me is who I am. And nothing is ever going to CHANGE who I am. and I'm THANKFUL.
I'm thankful because I FOUND that guy I've always fantasized about. I'm PROUD to be a freak. I've got GREAT friends who will always have my back. My family does care about me...even if I can be a little odd sometimes. I've decided I don't care if other people think I'm weird. They'll just have to deal with the fact that this girl isn't changing for anyone. Love me like I am...or don't love me at all.
And..I have NO IDEA Why I've alla sudden had some weird epiphany...but...I just..feel inspired at the moment.

I.
am.
ME!
and I thank God for the life that I live.
Because I am TRULY blessed.

Sincerely,

-Kiera