Somebody that I used to know.

Alright so we know how everyone thinks I'm incredibly naive right? Goody-goody? Well recently I've been talking to my friends about Prom and we're all planning what to do before and after. My friends invited me to a sleepover at my friends house and I was planning on going until my friend says "Were gonna try and get some alcohol. I think we'll have some." and I immediately didn't want to be there. You may think it sounds silly or goody-goody but I don't want to put myself in that situation. I dont want people to see me as someone I am not. I don't want to present myself in a way that is not controlled. I am who I am and I won't let any level of alcohol change that. I don't care if you are my "best friends". You do what you wish but your going to have to accept who I am. I don't drink. I don't smoke or do any type of drug. Im conservative sometimes, yes. But is that a reason to treat me differently? No. You are sorely mistaken if your idea of fun is getting yourself so drunk that you have no idea who you are. They you have no control of your decisions and that you will not remember it in the morning as you complain about your migraine and throw up over the toilet. That was your decision, and it will not be mine. I will not. I'm sorry but No ones opinion wil phase me. And if these people truly are my best friends, they would understand. But sometimes I don't think they are. They sure as heck don't treat me like it. They don't tell me things because when they do, I give them advice. I'm sorry if I care about you enough to worry what your getting yourself into. Maybe i should just stop caring. Nobody listens to me anyways. My opinion simply just doesn't matter because I havent experience these things. Because "Kiera doesn't understand." well screw that. I know enough to understand that what your doing is stupid, dangerous and no the person I want to be. And if you can't deal with that, I'm sorry but we can't be friends. Because I won't change for anyone. No exceptions. I guess I'm finding out who my real friends are everyday. I dream of a day where I have a best friend who I can count on. Who will text me when i need them. Who won't cut me off and then talk to me when it's convenient. I need to stop making excuses for everyones behavior. Because I'm tired of being hurt by people I trust.

-Kiera